Desert Time

You know, sometimes you just have nothing to say.  Sometimes you have something to say, but don't feel like talking. And sometimes you have something to say but just don't know how to say it.  Well, it was a mix of all three.  I have been lost, confused, and surprised.  My faith has been wavering. My heart has been broken. 

Now something new has broken my heart. I do not understand it, nor do I know if I ever will.  Two nights ago, my roommate went over to our new friend's apartment across the way.  I had just gone to bed.  My roommate came back and said he had some bad news.  Nate is dead.  The police were at his apartment, and we went back over to try to get answers and to help them figure things out.  Nothing makes sense with it, but maybe someday we will get some answers.  Now we just remember him fondly.He had a wonderful heart and was one of the most welcoming people I have met. 

I pray that the Lord welcomes him in with Nate's baptism of desire.  He was just a few days away from going to Mass for the first time, and looking into becoming Catholic.  

Nate, you will be missed, and you are Loved.